Yesterday I had this moment... a moment of clarity.
And then a moment of WHO AM I? What am I supposed to be doing? Feeling lost about who I am authentically.
I have been holding things in since October when I started the 13 Month - Bio Womb Apprenticeship.
I realized in order for me to deeply heal certain things, I need safe space held for me to "fall apart". I need validation.
Grief was holding strong under the surface. As I connected, guided by Sama Morningstar, I realized I was blocked with fear.
As I connected to the fear, I could feel it. Bigger than a marble, smaller than a golf ball, sitting near the surface of my belly, just below my sternum.
Grief was bubbling up. Shame and guilt from my childhood. There were some ugly cries coming out. I felt safe. I felt nurtured. Sama guided me to breath and let out sound.
There were some low tone and guttural sounds coming up. I felt the desire to really tap into the masculine energy. As I expressed this need to honor who I really am,...
Yesterday I did some purging and clearing in the house. I knew I would find something special. I found a pad of paper. As I flipped through the pages of work notes, I came across a page where I wrote, "Wake up excited every day". This is from about 5 years ago.
This morning, I woke up excited. For this I am filled beyond measurable gratitude. Ugly cry, tears streaming grateful.
THANK YOU GOD!!! Thank you for bringing me here. Thank you for giving me this awareness today.
I remember waking up to ANXIETY every morning. DREADING the day ahead of me. Not really sleeping because I was dreaming about all the shit that was going to go wrong in my day. Replaying things I said or did, being REALLY hard and critical of myself. Once fully awake, just wanting to go back to sleep. Hating my life and my very existence.
While today is soooooo sooooo very far from that. I am tired. I am ready for a new peace. I am ready for a new happy. My peace and happiness are evolving. (Hey - who...
"Energy is contagious."
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